
R. Buckminster Fuller: THE HISTORY (and Mystery) OF THE UNIVERSE opened last night at Portland Center Stage. My feelings were mixed.
The NOT-SO-GOOD: 1) It's general seating and I got there just before they closed the doors. Seated high on the right side of the house, I was too close to the sound system and (with the exception of the moment when he stomped and it reverberated through the theater) the sound was a bit distracting and occasionally drowned out the actor.
2) The show made me cranky and depressed.
The GOOD: 1) I quickly got over being depressed and enjoyed listening to other people talk about the show
2) I think I am in the minority feeling cranky/depressed, as I have been told that many people leave the show feeling inspired and hopeful. While the first act was a fascinating crash course in the life and times of Fuller, the second act focused on the state of the world (war, poverty, Wall Street money-grubbers, the CIA, etc). He spoke a lot about working together, rethinking and seeing things for what they are or could possibly be.
At one point, he recalled the words of Fuller's book, I Seem to Be a Verb, in which he said, "If man chooses oblivion, he can go right on leaving his fate to his political leaders. If he chooses Utopia, he must initiate an enormous educational program—immediately, if not sooner.” Ouch.
Fuller had advocated for sustainability long before it became hip, believing in what he called ephemeralization (essentially the technological ability to do more with less). What's more, he believed that we were capable of achieving it. He believed in the possibility of the individual to change the world and benefit mankind. His hopefulness left me feeling depressed because, knowing he had died in 1983, I kept wondering if he'd still feel so certain that we could survive. While he compared himself and other humans to the rudder of a ship (small in comparison to the whole of the ship, behind it, but still capable of navigating it) I kept thinking about all those rudderless ships out there on "spaceship earth."
2) Doug Tompos (Bucky) does a fine job of holding everyone's attention for two hours. Delivered like a scientific/philosophic lecture, the monologue seems to come straight from his stream of consciousness. He is at times manic and then dreamy, giddy and then depressed. His portrayal of Bucky and Jacob's script capture both the man's oddities (like the fact that he didn't speak for 2 years while contemplating how man could be truly effective) and his visionary way of thinking. Fuller's ideas about humanity and each person's place in it are very inspiring (providing that you still believe in human compassion). And at times, when speaking about his moments of inspiration, he was downright plucky.
3) The first act has the best closing line ever.
4) I really enjoyed a moment when Fuller/Tompos recalled the words of ee cummings in his piece, "a poet's advice." While it made me kick myself for trying so hard to "be a poet" it also reminded me of why I do it at all.
A Poet's Advice
e. e. cummings
A poet is somebody who feels, and who expresses his feelings through
words.
This may sound easy. It isn't.
A lot of people think or believe or know they feel—but that's
thinking or believing or knowing; not feeling. And poetry is
feeling—not knowing or believing or thinking.
Almost anybody can learn to think or believe or know, but not a single
human being can be taught to feel. Why? Because whenever you think
or you believe or you know, you're a lot of other people: but the
moment you feel, you're nobody-but-yourself.
To be nobody-but-yourself—in a world which is doing its best, night
and day, to make you everybody else—means to fight the hardest
battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.
As for expressing nobody-but-yourself in words, that means working
just a little harder than anybody who isn't a poet can possible
imagine. Why? Because nothing is quite as easy as using words like
somebody else. We all of us do exactly this nearly all of the
time—and whenever we do it, we are not poets.
If, at the end of your first ten or fifteen years of fighting and
working and feeling, you find you've written one line of one poem,
you'll be very lucky indeed.
And so my advice to all young people who wish to become poets is: do
something easy, like learning how to blow up the world—unless you're
not only willing, but glad, to feel and work and fight till you die.
Does this sound dismal? It isn't.
It's the most wonderful life on earth.
Or so I feel.
